Chapter37 LadyCatherineseemedresigned."Mrs.Collins,youmustsendaservantwiththem.YouknowIalwaysspeakmymind,andIcannotbeartheideaoftwoyoungwomentravellingpostbythemselves.Itishighlyimproper.Youmustcontrivetosendsomebody.Ihavethegreatestdislikeintheworldtothatsortofthing. --Youngwomenshouldalwaysbeproperlyguardedandattended,accordingtotheirsituationinlife.WhenmynieceGeorgianawenttoRamsgatelastsummer,Imadeapointofherhavingtwomenservantsgowithher. --MissDarcy,thedaughterofMr.DarcyofPemberley,andLadyAnne,couldnothaveappearedwithproprietyinadifferentmanner. --Iamexcessivelyattentivetoallthosethings.YoumustsendJohnwiththeyoungladies,Mrs.Collins.Iamgladitoccurredtometomentionit;foritwouldreallybediscreditabletoyoutoletthemgoalone.""Myuncleistosendaservantforus.""Oh! --Youruncle! --Hekeepsaman-servant,doeshe? --Iamverygladyouhavesomebodywhothinksofthosethings.Whereshallyouchangehorses? --Oh!Bromley,ofcourse. --IfyoumentionmynameattheBell,youwillbeattendedto."LadyCatherinehadmanyotherquestionstoaskrespectingtheirjourney,andasshedidnotanswerthemallherself,attentionwasnecessary,whichElizabethbelievedtobeluckyforher,or,withamindsooccupied,shemighthaveforgottenwhereshewas.Reflectionmustbereservedforsolitaryhours;whenevershewasalone,shegavewaytoitasthegreatestrelief;andnotadaywentbywithoutasolitarywalk,inwhichshemightindulgeinallthedelightofunpleasantrecollections.Mr.Darcy'sletter,shewasinafairwayofsoonknowingbyheart.Shestudiedeverysentence:andherfeelingstowardsitswriterwereattimeswidelydifferent.Whensherememberedthestyleofhisaddress,shewasstillfullofindignation;butwhensheconsideredhowunjustlyshehadcondemnedandupbraidedhim,herangerwasturnedagainstherself;andhisdisappointedfeelingsbecametheobjectofcompassion.Hisattachmentexcitedgratitude,hisgeneralcharacterrespect;butshecouldnotapprovehim;norcouldsheforamomentrepentherrefusal,orfeeltheslightestinclinationevertoseehimagain.Inherownpastbehaviour,therewasaconstantsourceofvexationandregret;andintheunhappydefectsofherfamilyasubjectofyetheavierchagrin.Theywerehopelessofremedy.Herfather,contentedwithlaughingatthem,wouldneverexerthimselftorestrainthewildgiddinessofhisyoungestdaughters;andhermother,withmannerssofarfromrightherself,wasentirelyinsensibleoftheevil. 第三十七章 咖苔琳夫人不便强留，便说道：“柯林斯太太，你得打发一个佣人送她们。我说话一向心直口快，我不放心让两位年轻的小姐赶远路。这太不象话了，我最看不惯的就是这种事，你千万得派一个人送送她们。对于年轻的小姐们，我们总得照着她们的身份好好是照顾她们，待候她们。我的姨侄女儿乔治安娜去年夏天上拉姆斯盖特去的时候，我非得要她有两个男佣人伴送不可。要知道，她身为彭伯里的达西先生和安妮夫人的千金小姐，不那样便难免有失体统。我对于这一类的事特别留意。你得打发约翰送送这两位小姐才好，柯林斯太太。幸亏我发觉了这件事，及时指出，否则让她们孤零零地自个儿走，把你的面子也丢光了。”“我舅舅会打发人来接我们的。”“噢，你的舅舅！他真有男佣人吗？我听了很高兴，总算有人替你想到这些事。你们打算在哪儿换马呢？当然是在白朗莱啦。你们只要在驿站上提一提我的名字，就会有人来招待你们。”提到她们的旅程，咖苔琳夫人还有许多话要问，而且她并不完全都是自问自答，因此你必须留心去听，伊丽莎白倒觉得这是她的运气，否则，她这么心事重重，一定会忘了自己作客身份呢。有心事应该等到单独一个人的时候再去想。每逢没有第二个人跟她在一起的时候，她就翻来复去地想个痛快；她没有哪一天不独个儿散步，一边走一边老是回想着那些不愉快的事情。达西那封信，她简直快要背得出了。她把每一句话都反复研究过，她对于这个写信人的感情，一忽儿热了起来，一忽儿又冷了下去。记起他那种笔调口吻，她到现在还是说不尽的气愤；可是只要一想到以前怎样错怪了他，错骂了他，她的气愤便转到自己身上来了。他那沮丧的情绪反而引起了她的同情。他的爱恋引起了她的感激，他的性格引起了她的尊敬；可是她无法对他发生好感，她拒绝他以后，从来不曾有过片刻的后悔，她根本不想再看到他。她经常为自己以往的行为感到苦恼和悔恨，家庭里面种种不幸的缺陷更叫她苦闷万分。这些缺陷是无法补救的。她父亲对这些缺陷只是一笑置之，懒得去约束他那几个小女儿的狂妄轻率的作风；至于她母亲，她本身既是作风失检，当然完全不会感觉到这方面的危害。